Fore Changing

Entry 1 💌

Hello and welcome to my first blog entry.

To introduce my self a little bit, my name is Jamani, and one of my many passions is writing poetry.

There's definitely probably a lot more to say in terms of introducing myself but I think you’ll come to know more as you read along.

For me I've notice when going on your new self journey you tend to carry guilt with you, and its not in the sense that you've done something wrong in that kind of manner but sometimes its more as if your taking away that chance of leaving and growing from the others around you, who rely on you in order to move forward in certain aspects in their life.

If it doesn't make sense now, thats perfectly fine. In my journey it was more like, in order to close one door, I had to close all of them.

Having no way out gives you a special kind of drive.

There will never be an “easy way out” and sometimes the straight line isn't the best course for you specifically.

But it's different for everybody.

No one person will ever live the same life and have the same experiences as another.

And we shouldn’t.

We need to experience our own walk of life to help gain knowledge for those who come after us.

But lets go back to the journey.

Realizing that in some parts I was the problem in their lives which meant that I too was the problem in my life as well, weirdly though I wasn't sad in a heartbreaking way.

It was defeat.

Here I was building a new house on a piece of land just to realize there's a sink hole underneath.

In order to truly want to change myself and my environment I had work on the foundation of my life first.

So that meant starting with me, mentally and physically.

Clearing out old mindsets so that i could take in new ideals and feelings without it being corrupted in the same ways I allowed it before.